dia

Dia...
Dia...
Dia...

Seharian kepikiran dia terus, bukan mikirin yang macem-macem tapi lebih nginget-nginget selama ini gw ngapain aja sama dia.
Mungkin yang sering gue inget itu kejadian-kejadian waktu gue ketemu sama dia, bukannya kata-kata waktu chatting, sms atau pun telepon.

Jujur, kangen juga nggak ketemu dia setelah berapa lama...
Sebenernya dari kemaren gue masih bingung dengan jawaban gue sendiri. Sampe tadi pagipun gue cuman bisa memberanikan diri dengan ngomong lewat YM
Gue sayang banget sama dia, something more than friend... Pastinya.
Tapi gue masih kepikiran kalau gue serius sama dia, bingung juga sih!

Tadi gue baru tau ternyata Gege udah jadian sama 'Vino Sebastian'nya itu...
Mereka berdua kayaknya dalam masa-masa berjayanya.

Selama hampir setahun kemaren, kalau dipikir-pikir gue rada bodoh juga untuk rela berbuat sesuatu untuk orang seperti itu
Mungkin bukan cara dia atau cara gue yang salah tapi cara kita berdua menyatukan suatu hal yang bagi kedua pihak susah.

Jadi selama itu gw dengerin lagu soundtrack West Side Story
Bryant, Jim - Something's Coming Lyrics

[TONY]
Could be!
Who knows?
There's something due any day;
I will know right away,
Soon as it shows.
It may come cannonballing down through the sky,
Gleam in its eye,
Bright as a rose!

Who knows?
It's only just out of reach,
Down the block, on a beach,
Under a tree.
I got a feeling there's a miracle due,
Gonna come true,
Coming to me!

Could it be? Yes, it could.
Something's coming, something good,
If I can wait!
Something's coming, I don't know what it is,
But it is
Gonna be great!

With a click, with a shock,
Phone'll jingle, door'll knock,
Open the latch!
Something's coming, don't know when, but it's soon;
Catch the moon,
One-handed catch!

Around the corner,
Or whistling down the river,
Come on, deliver
To me!
Will it be? Yes, it will.
Maybe just by holding still,
It'll be there!

Come on, something, come on in, don't be shy,
Meet a guy,
Pull up a chair!
The air is humming,
And something great is coming!
Who knows?
It's only just out of reach,
Down the block, on a beach,
Maybe tonight..

And all I kept think about... IVE DONE MY KARMA, and I can't wait for what comes next.

Dan juga tiba-tiba temen gue nanya apa gue punya dvd 'He's just not that into you', setelah ngerasain rasa ngeGANTUNG itu
Film ini yang sempet buka mata buka (yah again walaupun gue masih suka berharap).

Gue bukan mikir kalau semua itu petanda atau nggak. Sekarang yang menjadi halangan ya adalah diri gue sendiri.
Padahal gue dari dulu juga mengharapkan biat sesuatu yang baru...

Maybe he is not the one, but he is the one who makes me laugh. Tough his maturity was unexpected. He is actually good. He actually is...